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Dream Dancer

26 Mar

I’m sitting here watching Phantom Gourmet, procrastinating just a little on getting motivated (okay, it’s 11am, so what!) and this seemed like a good time to run my mouth off in a blog post.

Anyway, I come before you today to talk about dreams. I’ve been having pretty vivid and interesting dreams all week, ranging from a trip to my family’s cottage in New Hampshire to a Pulp Fiction-esque nocturnal reverie (I blame this week’s episode of Community for that one). Last night, though, I had a lovely ballet dream. These are more and more frequent as my obsession — I mean passion! — grows.

In my dreams, I can developpé à la seconde up to my ear, hold my balance en pointe, hold my arabesque, pirouette (doubles! triples! en pointe!) … in my dreams, I am about 200% more talented and flexible than I am in my waking hours.

The first few times I had dreams such as these, I woke up disappointed with my self and with my limitations. Now I relish in these dreams! They inspire me, they motivate me, they drive me to be the dancer I am in my subconscious. At my age, I may never be that dancer, but the dreams push me to be better than I am now and that push is everything.

I’m stubborn, I’m a perfectionist… sometimes it feels as though I won’t rest until I get something right. Until then, I’ll always have these dreams. If my brain can do it, sooner or later my body will, too. Right?


First position.

5 Jan

Where to start? I haven’t really kept a blog in years — aside from my Tumblr, which is merely a series of reblogged ballet and Doctor Who-related photos, so that hardly counts for much. This blog originated mostly from the name, Short and to the Pointe, which was my answer to the questions “What would a TV show about your life be named?” Instead, the lightbulb went off, and I decided to bring myself out of blogging retirement.

I’ll start by introducing myself. My name is Laura, but I also go by Lola or Penguin (and many variants thereof). I’m 25, and about a year ago I made my return to the world of ballet after a prolonged absence. This winter, I began the long and arduous journey of learning pointe, something I had missed out on during my years in ballet classes as a child. Now you see where the blog title came from, no? I’m 5’1… short, and learning pointe.

With that out of the way, and with this being a new year and all, I’ve decided to start this blog with a list of my goals for the year:

  1. Improve my flexibility. I had been seeing an improvement, but due to scheduling conflicts, I had to stop attending my weekly yoga classes and one of my technique classes. After that, I found it harder to set aside time every day for stretching and I slowly saw the little flexibility I had gained start to fade away. I hope to get it back in the next few months.
  2. Become stronger en pointe. Yes, this is a pretty general goal, and I do feel like I’ve been making progress in the last month or so since I started, but there will always be room for improvement and I will always strive for it. I’d love to be more confident in balancing on my toes… I feel like I have to capacity for it, but I get spooked whenever I let go of the barre! Mind over matter, I suppose.
  3. Overcome my fear of turns. Which is more a fear of falling on my face, really. I still haven’t quite mastered spotting, and for some reason that makes me hesitant to even try (unless I’m in my kitchen in the middle of the night). I received some excellent pointers for pirouettes from my teacher a few weeks ago, and they all make sense in theory, but in practice I have about a 40% success rate.
  4. Attend more classes per week. Unfortunately, the thing about starting ballet again as an adult is that you will always have to let it play second fiddle to your professional life. I’ve been lucky enough to be able to take the classes I have been taking for the last year, but I need more… I need to feed my obsession! I’m hoping, though, that between two or three different studios, I will be able to bump myself up from two classes a week to at least three or four. It will be difficult, but worth it.
  5. Make more friends through ballet. I’ve met some amazing people through my current studio — people who share this strange love I have for dance — and I truly hope to meet more. It’s hard, sometimes, because many of my friends do not really understand. I have a few friends from my childhood ballet classes with whom I am still in touch, but our lives have gone in different directions over the last 15 years, so it’s hard to stay in touch. I’d love to be able to dance with them again someday soon.

That’s about all I can come up with right now, but it’s a start, right? Oh! And one more goal… to post my experiences (trial, tribulations, etc.) with ballet and pointe to this blog. Thanks for reading, and feel free to comment with any questions or ideas for future blog posts. I need all the help I can get!

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